Today has been hellish to say the least, but the veil has been lifted!! I have literally been lying to myself, about everyone and everything because I thought I was helping, but in doing so I hurt me and my princes.
I don't need anyone acting like they care when they truly don't. If you are going to talk about me please be sure you have all the facts because talking out the side of ya neck is frowned upon by me.
Every since the cancer has left people act as if my life automatically jumped back to normal. Uh...no the hell it didn't!! I'm sitting here right now with 1 normal breast, 1 amputated breast but stuffed with a expander that feels like a brick, I'm still in constant pain with this left arm that's not fully functional, and people just made it up in their mind that I'm healed...bullshit!!! Who tf are you? For this past year I've lived through hell. No income, No car, No home of my own, period. I only worked for 1 month last year because of the cancer, and now I don't even know if it's worth it to file my taxes.
I'm just so fuxin' done with it all!!
🤬I HATE IT HERE!!🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Yes, there are a lot of things that I can see are positive, but the way I'm feeling right now I'm just over it. I have the right to feel anyway that I need to.
I got my Princes because I just could not send them back, I couldn't, not in good conscious as a mom after talking with them. Idc what I gotta do, but they are staying with me in Dallas/Rowlett or wherever I'm at, period. They are mine and my responsibility. I greatly appreciate the help I received for them while I was in chemo, regardless of how the situation looked☹🙁
I just want to be happy again in my own home, with my own car, with my own income, and with my princes. They have been through so much, and yet they are still fighting on. They are just happy that they are with me.
I know that things will get better eventually, but right now I'm in my feelings, I'm not ok, and I'm hurt like hell.
#WarriorQueen #NewLifeWhoDis #TNBCSurvivor #MelaninGoddess
I don't need anyone acting like they care when they truly don't. If you are going to talk about me please be sure you have all the facts because talking out the side of ya neck is frowned upon by me.
Every since the cancer has left people act as if my life automatically jumped back to normal. Uh...no the hell it didn't!! I'm sitting here right now with 1 normal breast, 1 amputated breast but stuffed with a expander that feels like a brick, I'm still in constant pain with this left arm that's not fully functional, and people just made it up in their mind that I'm healed...bullshit!!! Who tf are you? For this past year I've lived through hell. No income, No car, No home of my own, period. I only worked for 1 month last year because of the cancer, and now I don't even know if it's worth it to file my taxes.
I'm just so fuxin' done with it all!!
🤬I HATE IT HERE!!🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Yes, there are a lot of things that I can see are positive, but the way I'm feeling right now I'm just over it. I have the right to feel anyway that I need to.
I got my Princes because I just could not send them back, I couldn't, not in good conscious as a mom after talking with them. Idc what I gotta do, but they are staying with me in Dallas/Rowlett or wherever I'm at, period. They are mine and my responsibility. I greatly appreciate the help I received for them while I was in chemo, regardless of how the situation looked☹🙁
I just want to be happy again in my own home, with my own car, with my own income, and with my princes. They have been through so much, and yet they are still fighting on. They are just happy that they are with me.
I know that things will get better eventually, but right now I'm in my feelings, I'm not ok, and I'm hurt like hell.
#WarriorQueen #NewLifeWhoDis #TNBCSurvivor #MelaninGoddess
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