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I'm going to beat this, period!! Yesterday was chemo day, and I'm not feeling it at all. I'm so tired,  nauseous, swollen, and achy. I'm also losing my hair now, and it takes about a week for it to be completely gone. Not sure how I feel about this tbh. I'm glad I'm shaved my head so that I'm be kinda prepared. I think I would've freaked out finding chunks of hair in my bed or on my pillow.

This feeling of going to sleep and waking up with cancer is crazy as heck!! It's hard for me not to feel lonely because no one can really understand what I'm going through. But, my support system is absolutely amazing!! I couldn't ask for anything more. It's just so hard because I still try to be like I wa before cancer. I try to do things, be active,  and when I do too much my body will sit me down. The mind is willing, but the body isn't. Let's not mention eating...ugh!! Nothing has taste, and nausea won't let me be great!! So, I drink a lot of ginger ale & alkaline water.

This is all I have today y'all!!
Do me a favor tho...if you feel a lump or anything unusual please say something to your doctor,  please. Early detection is everything!! Don't let anyone tell you that you tripping or whatever...unless they have a M.D. or PhD go get checked, periodt (like the young folks say)!

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