Ugh...the days before chemo always depress me the most. I'll spend my whole year getting well, and hopefully next year will be what I need. I'm just feeling really sad and alone right now. It sucks because this just can't be talked about with anyone unless you've been through it, and know what your body and mind goes through😔 I try to do things to get my mind on other stuff, but I only get a few good days before chemo comes again. More would be better, but I'm grateful for what I have. Maybe today is just a depression type of day. Cancer won't rule me, but it damn sure does break a sista down. I can't be there for the people who need me the most...so I'm just hoping for the best.
💯Man, this is so crazy yo!!💯 I've been waiting for this date for over a year. November 3, 2020, will be like a rebirth for me physically. Like, I am actually excited, nervous, anxious, etc. I mean this is one of the biggest surgeries I have ever had. I mean the mastectomy was a huge deal, but this is Breast DIEP Flap surgery; DIEP stands for Deep Inferior Epigastric Perforator. With the DIEP Flap surgery the lower abdominal skin and fat is removed without having to harvest any of the rectus abdominis muscle. Then, with the skin and fat from my stomach the plastic surgeons will reconstruct me a new breast, and perform a lift on the other breast to make them even. Oh and I will be having my stomach muscles tightened up and hernia removed as well. I won't have a bellybutton, but my plastic surgeon says he can make me a pretty one a later date!!! I can't lie ya girl is LIT ASF about getting this surgery done, but more...
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