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WHAAAA!!!!

It's so crazy that I'm sitting up here writing this with Triple Negative Breast Cancer😔. Then I started chemo Tuesday 03/05/19. I'm sad, mad, and all around just in a state of shock. As we speak I'm sitting here with a port implanted in my chest and neck for my chemotherapy. S@#!😡...I'm having freakin' chemo, like freakin' really!!!! I'm sorry but I just feel the need to say these things.

This port in my chest and tube in my neck is so uncomfortable and painful. I can't lie down or lean a certain way because it causes so much pain. This chemo for me so damn tiring. I can't even do simple stuff like fix a snack, get showered, and get dressed. I was so tired after I got done doing that today. And guess what...I'm still tired.

Who would've ever thought that I'd get breast cancer!! I know I didn't. Just hearing those words were devastating. I didn't know how to tell my kids or even what to say to them. Even now it's still saddening. Medicine has come a long way, and I'm praying that all my treatments are amazing, and that work like they are supposed to. 

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