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A Surgery Date...Finally!!!!


 💯Man, this is so crazy yo!!💯  I've been waiting for this date for over a year.  November 3, 2020, will be like a rebirth for me physically.  Like, I am actually excited, nervous, anxious, etc.  I mean this is one of the biggest surgeries I have ever had.  I mean the mastectomy was a huge deal, but this is Breast DIEP Flap surgery; DIEP stands for Deep Inferior Epigastric Perforator.  With the DIEP Flap surgery the lower abdominal skin and fat is removed without having to harvest any of the rectus abdominis muscle.  Then, with the skin and fat from my stomach the plastic surgeons will reconstruct me a new breast, and perform a lift on the other breast to make them even.  Oh and I will be having my stomach muscles tightened up and hernia removed as well.  I won't have a bellybutton, but my plastic surgeon says he can make me a pretty one a later date!!!  

I can't lie ya girl is LIT ASF about getting this surgery done, but more than anything I get to get this expander out and this pain will be gone.  I stay in pain daily & Yes it sucks!! But, due to the nerve damage to my left arm I can't feel when it hurts at that particular point in time.  I only notice when it's a sharp ass pain outta nowhere.  I think I might be in a bit of shock and denial about it because; I guess I never thought it would be happening as quick as it is.  I know that I am grateful and blessed that they are doing everything at the same time. 

So, it's Sunday night and I take a COVID test in the morning in preparation for my surgery on Tuesday.  I'm feeling very anxious, nervous, scared, shooketh, etc. I know the jitters would come, but this is different because this is my life & body being transformed in a way I didn't ask for, but it's the reward I deserve after what my body endured. I don't care who doesn't like it; all I know is that if anybody says I had a boob job please believe you will get all the business of these words and education about why I had to lose 1 of my breast in the 1st place.

✨My Warrior Scars are Beautiful✨ 

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