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What's Different?!?!

Well, this is an interesting year so far. Let's just say I will definitely be getting my ass up outta here. I'm so tired of folks acting like I fucking chose to have cancer. Just because I'm cancer-free does not mean I'm 100% healthy. People would rather see me hospitalized, sick from chemo treatment, and broke down because in their eyes I guess that's "Cancer". What is wrong with people?? I've had the last few months to really get back to some sense of normalcy. To really be able to enjoy just not feeling or being sick.  Is that too much to ask? Of course it is🙄*hard ass eye roll* because people know exactly what the hell I'm going through. They can't and won't EVER BE ABLE TO feel nor understand my pain physically, mentally, and emotionally. No one stresses about where they live or are going to live, but I have since day 1. I cannot afford anybody's rent right now,  and I can't work at anyone's job because of upcoming surgeries. 

 I try to do the best I can with what I got, and I'm not perfect by any means. I do what I can for my kids, and I always come thru for them, period. My kids didn't really get shit for Christmas because I couldn't afford it. My heart hurts because it's apparently my fault that all this happened to me...SMDH. All I know is that I'm beyond tired of it all. 


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