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The Princes

You know what hurts the most about this journey? Not being able to do for my Princes what I once could. Being unable to work I have no steady, good money coming in, and at the moment I don't have a car. It's so hard to listen to them tell me what they want, and I have no way to provide it. Yes, they understand it, but it still hurts me because they aren't used to this. I always come through when they need me, but now it's totally different. They truly only care about spending time with me, and I love  them so much for  that. But, they have needs and necessities, and I'm not sure how we've made it this far, but we are still here.

I miss having fun with them so much!
I miss having a home for us as well! It has literally been almost 2 years since we've had our own place to live. For a while, I was so pissed because I always have to go through hell when I watch others get it so easy. I mean, what did I do so bad? Am I being punished for making a bad decision when I was chilling? It can't be that because I've learned so much about myself. And, I always seem to be the last one to get it right. Maybe, I needed to get thru this journey so that I will be ok. Because to be honest, I would not have been able to keep up with rent. But, I'm ready to be right, be comfortable, and just live a good life. My kids deserve that.

They are such good kids, when they aren't fighting🤷🏾‍♀️😅 I really just miss being their mama. Cancer literally affects every area of your life especially as a single mom. All you think about is your kids. They are just as stressed as I am, and I don't want them to be. I want them to be back happy, and I don't want their light to ever be diminished again.
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