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Getting Thru

So, this is my scar where my port was implanted. That dark mark above that is a tube that runs down the inside of my neck. This thing had been giving me the blues this week, but that's what comes along with this chemo battle. You see, every time I go to chemo they have to access my port to give me the medicine. How do they access it you say? Well, I get stuck with a little hook like needle every time. Now, this is after I come from lab where I get stuck in the arm🤦🏾‍♀️

I've been poked and prodded so much that I'm beginning to despise all needles. Each time my port is accessed it is hella painful. I slide down that chair every time hunny, but then I recover. Next, I get to sit for 2 hours through 4-5 bags of IV chemo meds. Then, my OBI(On Body Injector) is attached to my stomach. I have to wait until that little needle sticks me as before I can leave chemo. You see, with the OBI medicine I don't have to go back to the doctor to get the steroid shot. The OBI gives me the medicine the next day and that takes 45 minutes to distribute that medication. Then, for the next 3 days I take 2 other steroid pills to help me get through it.

So, this definitely leaves a sista consistently nauseous and weak. Chemo weeks are definitely the worst, but this medicine is extra, extra tough.

I share my story with you all because cancer is not this easy pretty battle. We all fight differently, and our cancer battles are all different. No one ever sees this side of the battle unless it happens to them or a close family member. This is just to spread knowledge and awareness.

Please get your girls checked out regardless of age. I'm 38 and my doctors are still like I'm too young.

Ttyl,
Nicole
#WarriorQueen

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