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After Effects of Chemo

You never know how things will effect you until a couple days later. Chemo whoops my a$! every other week for at least a week. The nerve pain is indescribable!! It's like thousands of electric shocks 24/7! I can't grip things, open my medications, or actually type on my phone; I have to use my stylus. Then, the feet, Lawd Hammercy!! They stay puffy, swollen, and sometimes hurt when I put shoes on. Next, the nausea & not being able to taste food, drink, anything🤦🏾‍♀️where do I begin!! It sucks!! Finally, the body as a whole is just defeated. My bones and joints hurt like I have a undiscovered flu strain!! That's the best way to describe it. My body hurts like I have the flu to the 125th power😔

It just takes a toll on my spirit & heart ya know. There aren't any days where you feel like your old self. Like NONE😔 
There are only a few days (maybe 4) that I will feel like going places, but then it's time for chemo again. CHEMO😡🤬!! It's hard but it's worth it to save my life, and kill this cancer to prevent it from spreading. 

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  1. Is this public that other people can read? U need to be in a support blog (if that's a thing)

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    1. I'm not really sure. I think it's more personal.

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