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So, I've had my mastectomy, my drains removed (scars from my drains), and now I'm getting expanded for my reconstructive surgery. 

You see things have changed, but I'm still gonna keep it pushing. I'm moving into Goddess from Queen level up mode. This mode requires me to protect me and my energy at all times. You see I know that there is one waiting for the worse, but I'm the one that just hurt your feelings.
You see, I'm going to always be A-1 ya dig!!! This cancer did it's thang to me physically, mentally, and emotionally I can't lie about that, but now I'm in control like my girl Janet said. I don't care if you think I'm ugly or bald headed because I'm still cute with dimples and the hips of a Goddess in the words of Trina...I'm the baddest.

So, many have worried about all the wrong ish, and it's ok. Because you can't understand what you haven't and hopefully won't ever have to go thru with this cancer shit. My looks have never defined me only enhanced me!! And that's the difference between the woman I was 3 months ago to the woman I am now. Today, I was really overwhelmed with this and had to blog about it.  Nobody or Nothing will ever define N'kole Bryant!!
So, just be prepared for the new woman you are about to get because cancer changes a person. I am forever changed, forever.
#WarriorQueen

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