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Understanding Strength


I'm on the 12th floor with a beautiful view of the city. This view gives me a bit of hope for a beautiful view of my new life.
But, it's been a 360° whirlwind of emotions.
Like am I losing it😥😭
I act as if I can still do it all, like nothing is wrong.  And now I can understand why my cousin was hardheaded, well at least it seemed that way in our eyes.
It was because we didn't understand how she was truly feeling inside. Your heart, soul, and spirit are broken. Who can you talk to? You can't look weak, and as a mother you sure don't wanna look weak in front of your kids.
I don't want to look weak😭 I want to show my princes what a strong queen looks like. What a strong black woman looks like. 
RIH Devin😍💖
#WarriorQueen

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