#WarriorQueenSpeaks

You never know how things will effect you until a couple days later. Chemo whoops my a$! every other week for at least a week. The nerve pain is indescribable!!  It's like thousands of electric shocks 24/7! I can't grip things, open my medications, or actually type on my phone; I have to use my stylus. Then, the feet, Lawd Hammercy!! They stay puffy, swollen, and sometimes hurt when I put shoes on. Next, the nausea & not being able to taste food, drink, anything🤦🏾‍♀️where do I begin!! It sucks!! Finally, the body as a whole is just defeated. My bones and joints hurt like I have a undiscovered flu strain!! That's the best way to describe it. My body hurts like I have the flu to the 125th power😔 It just takes a toll on my spirit & heart ya know. There aren't any days where you feel like your old self. Like NONE😔  There are only a few days (maybe 4) that I will feel like going places, but then it's time for chemo again. CHEMO😡🤬!! It's hard but it...

I feel like I'm on pause. I can't move forward until I get well. I can't do anything, and it hurts. I can't do anything with my kids because I'm tired asf. I want to talk, but then I don't because I don't wanna complain. I'm so damn weird!! It's like I don't wanna burden anyone with my illness. Constant bone & joint pain, constant nerve pain....what else can hurt ya know.  Oh yeah my heart, my emotions are all over the place, but I try to be strong. Truth be told, I'm an emotional mess. How do you handle your emotions, but you not want to conceived as weak. Cancer and chemo are nothing to play with! They will break you, and it's in every aspect of breaking, physically, emotionally, and mentally.  Then you see everyone else living their best life, while you are just trying to live, period. I try to find happiness on my good days, but those are few and far in between. I always feel better about 3-4 days before I have to have chemo a...