I'm so tired of waking up and going to bed sick!! I wanna f#$% scream!! These last few days have damn near broke me. The way I got sick earlier felt more like an attack. It was so damn violent that for a minute there I blacked out again!! I'm glad my kids were here because they yelled, "Mama!" By that time I had dropped the bucket on the floor, and was sliding off the couch😭Like really, how much is enough?! I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle, and today has been hell. It's been a good week since my last chemo, and I'm still sick from it because it gets worse at the 5 to 10 day mark. This shit is horrible!! And I'm sorry, but I don't have anything positive to say about how I'm feeling🤬😡!! Mentally I'm exhausted trying to be and stay strong, put on a great face, and still try to do things that literally wear me out. Physically I'm exhausted and beat the hell up😭I can't sleep well, I can't eat, these hot flashes🥵 are ta...
Take a journey with me thru my ups and downs of dealing with Triple Negative Breast Cancer, mental health issues (anxiety, depression, and PTSD), and how survivorship/remission has changed me. I am here to engage, educate, uplift, and help anyone that I can this includes, cancer patients, their caregivers, and the survivors.